I guess i expected more from You. You, whom these years have engrained into my life and heart. You, from whom which endless nothingness spawn away, dispent. You. Just You. But now, You are no more. No more happy nothingness. No more laughter, fun; incompare. You, with just one thought, destroyed, wrecked, wrought - all that's not. Tiny tingles, loud machinations, corrupt minds, lost souls, together we seeked a homage bordered only upon a single rampage. It may not be so, but yet, i fear it must be so. Never did i foresee this circumstance, never did court the position in awry. Cannot fathom, cannot compute. Cannot forget, cannot repudiate. Flung at but not fully appreciated - to live now in a void, vacuous state of non-being.

You, more so than He, should know me through and through. Toss, spurn, burning incredulity. I fathom not what You say, grasp not what You resent. So, have we, so long, so far, at last come to pass.. at this? Is this what You really feel? I never knew. Knew not what i did not see. Blind to facts, feigned? Or authentic sightlessness?

It was He who first represent. His stark disappointment; raw jealousy. Palpable dissatisfaction. All over what? What which was not? Yet, it is You who reacted with so must zest and unforeseen cruelty. Yes, You. To whom all else used to bear but little intolerability. Why it affects me more is hard to say. But its You, not He. Yes, You. I guess the truth may hurt at times, but You. Its You. Maybe i should be flattered, not shocked. Turn a blind eye, turn around. The tick tock tick tock .. time goes on ...

Pure rhapsody was but not so pure. Tainted only by a brittle line of shady translucency - shadows upon the door. Door, left to none, eternally as is begotten of a tangled mess of error, confusion and ambiguity. Unknowing hurt which hurts to know, an apology which will not go. Parts played, cannot negate; my blame cannot be shielded in totality. Yet, cannot be unsheathed in utmost victory. You, to whom with soft shadows appear to me, never truly unmasked. So so, what will be will be. But i expected more from thee.