Thanksgivin in Indiana was seriously THE SHIT. SOOOO MUCCHHH FUUUN!!!! Honestly 5 days of pure unadulterated carefree funfunfuuuun w/ my kids! :) I love these peeps. Running around together, staying up, being super hyper, foooooooooood ... sooo much friggin' fuuun!! The road trip with the boys there and back was also insane. So many memories. So many compromising pictures, so many inappropriate comments, so many unshowable videos. Soooo muuuuch fuuuuuunnnn. Lovelove :) i miss us. These are definitely the best days of my life.

Alex and me


Erica, Natalie, me

Apartment party - weekend before thanksgivin break - aka the night i walked into a wall

Sigh, after you get a boyfriend, there seem like there are less boys around... :( But i still looove my girrrrlsss!!

TAV :)


Pinky-swearers!


Kaaaateee


Sarahhh


Carolynnn


Kamillaaaa


more to come.

***

Its my way or the high way. I don't care. On that, i will not compromise. I wear the pants in the relationship. No fcuking question. Good on all accounts except that. Work on it. Last chance. Don't talk about it, be about it.

:)

We're doing everything backwards. 'Cause we're cool like that. First date tomorrow. Excited!

I keep doubting. Flashing between bouts of rights and oh-so-wrongs. Yet somehow you always manage to pull me back. You say something, do something. And it falls into place. It makes it right again. As if it were meant to be. Laughing; i went to sleep smiling. You're on my profile now. Happy, u big jealous baby?

It hasnt fully sunk in. Yet, i find myself smiling. Smiling at the tiniest things. At the most random times. So many triggers. I just can't stop. Just can't stop smiling.

Finally builds upon finally and finally finally came.

Happy now.

Such a tool. Such a tool. :) :)

This is what Fartz would call, "disgustingly happy". heehee

Since Halloween, apparently.

MORON.

Show up w/ flowers or lose me forever. Baby.

You can't resist. Sorry. The allure is too great. Sorry. You're too far gone. Again, i apologize.

Knowing i can have you at a moment's notice, at my beck and call, throws me strangely into placid turmoil. Ah, but do i want you?

When did i start noticing. That hot ass of yours. When you were tryin to help me break into my room? I like that ass.

Wrought with confusion. But you're reeled in. Hook, line and sinker. You're captivated. Sorry. I rest knowing i have done the deed. I can have you at a snap of a finger, the blink of an eye, the bat of an eyelid. And knowledge. Ah, knowledge. Knowledge is power.

Pamper me. I love it.

Beebs is right, this is kinda therapeutic..

I am that girl.

I am that girl who doesn't know what she wants. I am that girl who has a.d.d., who cannot stay still or dedicated to a task at times. I am that girl who it doesn't take that much to do well. As long as she reads through the material once. As long as she does. I am that girl who's peers, who go to classes and study so much more, end up doing worse and resent her for it - whether jokingly or not. I am the girl who is then left wondering if she's plain brilliant or if her peers are plain dumb. I am that girl with poor time management. I am the girl who feels like she's failing out of school. I am the girl who claims shes never failed before - then failed driving the first time round.

I am the girl who still does not know what she wants. I am that girl who finally is getting that she's not fat. Anymore. I am that girl who is self-conscious of her weight. How she looks in the mornings when she just wakes up. How she looks in glasses. How she looks to boys. I am that girl who guys tell she's so skinny. That they can feel her hip bones. I am the girl who likes to be pampered and spoilt. I am that girl who is temperamental and moody, happy and insane. I am the girl who is more confident. But yet, more uncertain. I am that girl who is confused and unfocussed. Who doesn't know how her life is going to span out, living one day to the next.

I am the girl who is terribly blessed and lucky. I am that girl who is so thankful for her friends and family. I am that girl who has so many opportunities if only she would take advantage of them. I am the girl who wants to get proactive, but whose plans always fizzle out. I am the girl who loves to party, the girl who loves to have fun. I am the girl who loves the attention but yet does not want it. I am the girl who is the "fun barometer", who's asian glow marks the start of a whirlwind of fun for everyone. I am the one they all want to get happy. I am that girl who's love of boys makes her vunerable yet in control.

I am the girl who's grown in many aspects since college. I am the one who loves and loves to be loved. I am the girl who cannot take rejection. I am the girl who is afraid to fail. I am the girl who hasn't had a very hard life. To whom money is not that much of an object and possessions are just a way of life. I am that girl who loves to shop. So much. I am that girl who used to tell her friends lucky she isn't thin or she'd look good in everything and buy everything. Not that it stopped her before. Now, I am that girl who has so many clothes she had to buy an extra chest of drawers for her apartment room. I am that girl who caves easily when it comes to work and play. Too easily. I am the girl who still does not know what she wants. I am that girl who wants to be pampered and treated like a princess by boys. I am the girl who gets what she wants. Who knows whatever she wants, she can get. I am that girl who lives in a castle in a perfect glass bubble world, looking out at the world.

I am the girl who feels out of place surrounded by the overseas Singaporeans but strangely feels so at ease with the Americans. I am the girl who does not understand why, but knows coming to the states over England was the right decision. I am that girl who is afraid of commitment, who likes the status quo of her current relationship-non-relationship. I am the girl who has comes to terms with those startling new emotions and has reverted back to her stoic staunch emotionlessness. I am the girl who can not be bothered. Who already knows she's gotten the prize on the bait and can reel him in at a moment's notice. But does she want to? Does she want to?

I am that girl. That girl who is surrounded by confusion, who does not know moderation. Everything is done in extremes. There is no center. I am that walking contradiction. That egotistical, unabashed, ashamed, perfect mess.

Last night + this morning = more than ridiculous. heh.

Just wondering what tonight has in store.....

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Last week's,

Halloween proper

The candy striper and the devil


My hairy chicas!


Miss first place wet t-shirt contest


Miss 3rd place


Mauricio.. lol


Carlos = Bloody priceless...!!!



Wow, those are fugly girls! lol


B RAD, my gangsta prom queens :)


Eric has the best timin'


Group pic


Ray as Indiana Jones


Veron and me


Virginiaaa


Siu, Kamilla, me


ALexyss .. ilries show how its dooone




With Saraah


Jediii


Taria and i want sooome lesbian lovin lol



Ray and i being asked by some dude we dont even know if we want a picture


Mr. Incredible

Fri was bloody awesome. Taria, Virginia, Ray and i head over to my friend, Alex's to pregame then hit up a party.

Virginia, Taria, Me


Siu decides to go out w/ us but takes sooooo long to get readyyyyy

w/ Siu


Ray donns the wings.... gaaaynesss ;P


after FOREVER, the kid gets ready, and we roll out

Alex, my bartender for the night... daaamn this kid had MAD DRINKS!!


Meghan arrives!


Taria: "Alex, are there frogs in my drink?"


hot girls on Alex's bed


MAD DRINKS


yeappp the asian is definitely glowinggg


they just cant stop takin pics of us huh... lol








Rolling out to the party, Taria and me ... sidewalk loove! :)



Taria:" you look like a dog peein on a fire hydrant"


leg down! [you just gotta looove Taria's one liners]


returnin' the love


and more


FINALLY GET TO THE PARTY w/ Ray and Alex

Chillaxin' on their oh-soo-comfy sofa




Gangsta A


Pimpin'


and the pimpin' continues...



and the rest of the night is history. as well as a blurrrrr. HEH. But sooooooo gooooooodddddd.