What do you do? What do you do with a relationship where u feel as if ure falling down a dark deep hole. At times u really want to get out, at times u just want to hit the ground, to let it all be over. Either way, u want to stop falling. And there's ur bf standing over u, over the hole, shouting in intermittedly he's gona save u, but its words, just useless useless words. At times he throws down a rope, tellin u to grab it, that he will pull u out, but each time as u grasp at it with hope, with blind faith that he is able to do what he says. He pulls u up an inch but lets u fall 10 feet. He keeps pulling u up but letting you fall, with each promise of redemption and of savior growing hollower and hollower. Each time, either the rope falls short, or the rope breaks. But yet he is always there, each time after he fails, pleading with you not to give up, that he will be able to pull u up and save you. You tell him to leave you be, to let you hit the ground, to end your misery, to just let you hit the ground. To go away. Yet, he is still there, pleading and begging for you not to give up. Each time the same song and dance. That same old song and dance. You want to give up so badly. So badly it hurts. You think you've become numb to it, numb to the pain, but yet there still lies in you that little glimmer of hope, that tiny flicker of the maybe. Maybe he means it this time, maybe he can save you. Maybe he will save you. Just maybe this time will be different.

Will i lose u forever? If u think this is best, i'll let you take time out and think about everything, but u said u wanted to figure out what held u back..so its keeping u from leaving. Does this mean once u figure it out, u'll leave, b/c u can let go of what's holding you back. I can't lose you, i love you. Please please don't leave. Come back to me. Are you going to leave? Am i going to lose you forever? He asks.

I don't know.. maybe.